New Year - New Attempt

My New Years Resolution - to f'in keep up with this blog. I'm going to do it.. seriously. :)

Angry! :(

I hoping that by writing this down I'll be able to forgive and stop beating myself up. Kevin came to meet me last minute for dinner tonight.. so I didn't really have time to heat up the meal I brought.. so I decided to grab pizza. I don't know why.. but I purchased 2 slices. I got a "to go" box and put the second slice in. I thought I would just toss the pizza at the end of the night. Well... apparently I was famished (*rolling my eyes*) at the end of my shift, so I decided to eat the pizza. I recall thinking to myself "WTF are you doing? just chuck it!") - but I proceeded to eat the entire thing.

Fucking 22 points of my weekly points is GONE to that pizza. I am so upset and angry with myself right now. I feel so incredibly guilty - I really wanted to have a good week so I could be on the track to getting to my goal weight. I seriously considered purging to get rid of the last slice of pizza. Ridiculous, I know! (I didn't.. but I am still furious with myself.)

I am going to go to bed, hopefully wake up not so upset and hit the gym HARD tomorrow. I'm going to have to be incredibly hard on myself all week. And we have a damn BBQ to go to on Monday. Le Sigh. :(

Night.

LoLCat

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Frustrating Day

So, I was doing really well eating wise.. until I was ambushed by bakery products. Another teacher brought in bagels & cream cheese from Panera. I did alright until my 6th or 7th pass by... and then they got the best of me. UHG. I spent 12ish points on a chocolate chip bagel and cream cheese - YUCK!

I tried to pull it together when I got home.. but for whatever reason a (mini) binge continued - half of my weekly points GONE. Uhg. I'm feeling kind of defeated right now about it. I'm headed to bed to go to the gym in the AM - I'm going to put today BEHIND me.

Summer Wishes...

Today was a bit of a challenge. I am really looking forward to summer break - I'm just about at my breaking point, if not there already. The students are already on summer mode, I'm headed in that direction and it is just not a good equation.

I weighed in today, down 1.2lbs, for a total of 81.2 - WoooHoo! I would really like to be at my goal weight by October / November. I would love to be there NOW, but that is a fairytale.

New!

As my journey in life continues to take turns I am hoping to keep up with it here. This will be my place for my thoughts, struggles and revelations as I continue my transformation.